Self-loving is Fundamental

Recently I was told that it doesn't matter who comes in and out of your life, as long as you love and accept yourself, "you" is the only person that you need. I found myself constantly questioning "why" people walk out of my life without an explanation and it took me a long time to come to terms with the fact that I couldn't control it. That my behaviour wouldn't change anything, that it was their problem and not mine.

Throughout this whole process I have learned a lot about myself and about the other people around me. I definitely am a believer of positivity breeds positivity. And honestly, I couldn't be happier in my little life. I have used the time to discover myself again, to actually have a relationship with myself that I hadn't had in a long time. It is so refreshing to not be constantly self-hating everyday. I used to think that spending time on my own was bad for me, but it wasn't until I fully understood my actions that being alone didn't really bother me any longer. 

I stumbled upon this quote and just thought it perfectly summed up my life currently. As soon as I saw myself as something worth living for, I realised the life I was living was poisonous. I had to make change. That meant letting go of old habits and moving on from friendships. I had to start living my life for me, and only me. It was a tough process that was probably one of the hardest things I have ever done, and I am still going through that process. But it is slowly becoming my way of life. 

I started living a more cleaner way of life. I started actually paying attention to what I was putting my body through, my eating habits, my lack of exercise, my overall state of mind. I tried to concentrate on creating a purer sense of self, adjusting little parts in my life, in terms of my actions and attitude, and it honestly did make a difference. That combined with a little bit more exercise, talking about the feelings I had and staying true to myself, really really helped. When I say "staying true to myself" I mean having faith in your beliefs and morals, not being afraid of rejection because of these morals. Reminding yourself that the people around you, love you, for you and the people who are meant to be in your life will stay. They are the people you should pay attention to. Not the people who treat you as an option and not a priority. 

Put yourself first. 

Only you can create your own happiness, don't let it depend on others.

xxxx